Confusing the Validation of Your Own Dreams with the Validation of Others – Midnight Thoughts #1

A few nights ago, around 11:30pm, I was rifling around for some food despite needing to be in bed as I always seem to do. Anyways, I got a thought regarding dreams and creativity, and I realized that I have quite a few of these thoughts every night. I am sure a lot of you have similar thoughts to me regarding our creative paths and choices, so I thought I would make a blog post series called “Midnight Thoughts” where I post rambly posts on different topics about creativity and writing.

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Lately I have been having a bit of anxiety about my upcoming last year of high school because it means applying to scholarships, universities, and ultimately piecing together my life. I’ve never had a problem with that though, because I have always wanted to write and have known that. Whether that means writing books, short stories, magazine articles…whatever works, I just want to write. While the path of a writer isn’t clearly defined, with lots of different road along the way…I still knew the steps I could take to kind of find my way. So that part is okay, but then I realized I was feeling anxious because I was confusing the validation of my OWN dreams with what other people considered “realistic dreams” that I should aspire to. Writing is not the easiest dream to chase, and I think most of us here have realized that pretty quickly. Personally, as a younger student who still lives at home and depends on her parents, I can afford to pour (almost) all of my energy into chasing this dream without having to worry about putting food on the table, paying for rent or other utilities…I don’t have to do any of that yet, and everyday I work hard so I am not taking it all for granted because it won’t always be like this.

However, recently when I have been sitting down to get work done, this little voice in my head questions the validation of my dreams based on how those around me, and those in general, feel about them. What I mean by this, is that lately I have been wondering what the point of being a writer is, and the point of pursuing it. Millions of stories are already out in the world, some untouched and some beloved by people from all around the world…why does the world need MY story? The journey to even a small success would be tiring and long, so what was the point? Why face all the struggle that it brings, and not just my own inner struggles, but those that the people around me bring as well. All the self-doubt and questioning and struggle…was it all worth it?

The answer is yes. The world needs your stories, and in the end the struggle and hardship will all be worth it as long as you are following your passion and dreams. I know all this, but sometimes I need a reminder because self-doubt and hesitation are strong, they can filter out the positivity when you need it most. I am always surprised when I feel like this because in previous years I rarely felt this way. Overall, I am a stubborn and ambitious person who doesn’t let the opinion and thoughts of others stand in the way of my own dreams and ideas. But sometimes something gets past my “stone hard” barrier and negativity finds a way to trickle in. That is okay though, it is good to question yourself, but only if you can manage to turn all of that hesitation and doubt into more drive and passion.

All I can say on how to diminish this annoying voice and mindset is to keep moving forward. Keep writing, keep creating, and never stop. Watch YouTube videos that inspire and motivate you, listen to creative podcasts and read blogs (like this one!). Just keep moving forward and never stop because if you do, the creative monster might get you. The creative monster feeds on your creativity, keeping it for itself so don’t slow down, pour all the energy you have into your projects and scare off the creativity monster with your ambition and determination to follow your dreams, and remember their validation.

Anyways, that is all for this rambly post and I hope you enjoyed! Let me know how often you question the validation of your dreams, and how you get over that negativity in the comments below!

I also wanted to say that tomorrow is day 1 of the Biannual Bibliothon! Whooo! This is a week long readathon that has reading, video, social media, and blogging challenges, so expect a week full of blog posts based on the different challenges they have. I will also being doing daily updates so stay tuned for that as well.

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June TBR

I am super pumped about June because there are a bunch of books I want to get to!!! All of these books are books I have not read and have just been sitting on my shelf for like ever and I am finally picking them up to start my summer!

New Moon by Stephanie Meyer is the first book on my June TBR. I am not a major fan of Twilight but for me the books are readable and I am slowly making my way through the series. I read Twilight about a year ago and I enjoyed it enough to want to continue so we will see how it goes!

A Court of Thorns and Roses by Sarah J Maas is another book I have had forever and am finally getting to it. High fantasy books tend to intimidate me just because they are hard to get through but once I get through them I cannot stop, like Throne of Glass. I have heard amazing things about this book and the second book came out recently so I need to catch up!

Saint Anything by Sarah Dessen is a book I received for my birthday last year and the reason I haven’t picked this book up is because I thought it was some depressing contemporary and it might be but I look up some reviews and they were really good so that motivated me to finally add to my TBR!

Shadow Kiss by Richelle Mead is the last book on my TBR. I am currently reading Frostbite and I am really enjoying it so I am excited to be continuing on with the series!

 

The Hidden Oracle by Rick Riordan Non-Spoiler Review

I just finished The Hidden Oracle by Rick Riordan today which is the first book his new book series so I decided to do a non-spoiler book review!

The Hidden Oracle is about the god Apollo, who is cast down to Earth by Zeus after angering him. The problem is that he has no godly powers and he is ordinary and utterly normal. At the same time something evil is on the horizon and Apollo has to learn to use what he has to stop it along with a few other companions. We even get to see some of the characters from his previous series!

I was really excited to start this book because I love all of Rick Riordan’s books. I have to admit I was a bit nervous that it wasn’t going to meet my expectations but I really enjoyed this book! There were slow parts but it is the first book in a new series so I didn’t really mind. It was so great seeing the old characters but I also loved meeting the new characters and getting to know a few better. Another bonus was that there was a lot of diversity in this book which I thought was great and I hope more authors add more diverse characters in their books. I think overall I would give this book a 4/5 stars just because while I enjoyed it, it wasn’t the strongest book ever. I would still recommend it to middle grade readers or anyone who loves his other series!

Shatter Me by Tahereh Mafi Review

Since I am now on the last book of the Shatter Me trilogy I decided to review them! Don’t worry, if you have not read this series these reviews will be non-spoilery.

Shatter Me is about a 17 year old girl named Juliette who has been locked up for a few years because of her curse/gift. She can kill with her touch. After being locked up for many years, she manages to get out but is brought to an organization that wants to “help” fix the broken world they live in but the longer Juliette stays there the more she realizes she needs to escape.

I loved this book. It was a fantastic way to start off a trilogy because it had me hooked on every page. The entire story was so poetically written and it was extremely easy to read. I gasped, laughed and cried quite a few times through this book just because of how amazing it was. I definitely recommend this for any dystopian or fantasy lovers because I can practically guarantee you will like it as much as I did. One of my favourite things about this book was the characters just because they were so real and in depth that I could just see where they were all coming from and that’s one thing that was a really strong aspect of this book for me. So overall I give this book a 4.8/5 stars and I cannot wait to finish the series.

Top 5 Favourite Villains

There are some pretty epic villains out there so I am going to be sharing my top 5 favourite villains! Comment your favourites below 🙂

Umbridge from Harry Potter is one of the nastiest villains ever. She is much worse than Voldemort because she is snotty, rude, evil and just has all the great qualities villains have.

Sebastian Morgenstern from The Mortal Instruments is amazing. He is sassy and evil and I love him so much, he is definitely one of my favourite villains out there. His story is so sad yet you hate him most of the time during the book because of all the truly evil and disgusting things he does.

Queen Levana from  The Lunar Chronicles is an epic villain. She has a terrible backstory that lets you know why she is the way she is but she takes everything way to far. Overall though she is an amazing villain and definitely had to make it on this list.

Gaea from The Heroes of Olympus series is also an amazing villain because she is freaking Mother Earth without the flowers in her hair and birds singing around her. She is down right nasty and she has no soft side whatsoever.

SPOILER FOR LADY MIDNIGHT AHEAD….

 

So I am hoping that if you haven’t read Lady Midnight you stopped reading and if you have then keep reading. I just don’t want to be responsible for spoiling you.

Malcom Fade from Lady Midnight was such a sweet and innocent characters that I thought was hilarious and then he turned out to be a freaking love driven villain! I was astounded that Cassandra Clare was able to do this to us but I guess I should underestimate her…ever again.

Those are my 5 favourite villains and I hope you enjoyed!

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Reading Update

I haven’t poShatter-Mested in a few days so I decided to update you guys with what I am reading and my reading plans! Comment below what you are currently reading because I would love to know!

So right now I am working through Unravel Me by Tahereh Mafi and I am really enjoying it! I have only read 2 days worth of it and am on page 150 but I am hoping to get to at least 200 by the end of the weekend. I know that doesn’t seem like much but I usually don’t read much on the weekend. I love reading at night and when I don’t have school I tend to watch movies all night…Anyways back to books. Once I have finished Unravel Me, I am hoping to jump right to the last book, Ignite Me!

That is all for my mini reading update 🙂

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Top 5 Favourite Authors

There are so many amazing authors out there to choose from but I managed to narrow it down to my top 5. These are just authors who if they publish a book no matter what it is about I will pick it up! Comment below your favourite authors because I would love to know! (BTW these are not in a specific order)

Cassandra Clare ~ I love all of Cassie’s books so so so much!!! Her writing is amazing and fun and she creates the best characters ever and I love all of them. Every book she writes is a must read for me.

Rick Riordan ~ The Percy Jackson series was the series that got me into reading and I think because of that I will always love his books and I will always keep picking them up! His writing is really funny and all his characters are so unique! He also keeps coming out with new books based on different mythologies and I looove mythology so it’s a huge bonus.

Rainbow Rowell ~ Rainbow Rowell’s books are just so cute and quirky that every single book I have picked by her, I’ve loved. Fangirl: Absolutely adored it. Eleanor and Park: Loved it. Carry On: Amazing. And yes I know those are not all of her books but those are just my 3 favourites are hers!

Jennifer L Armentrout ~ I have only read the Lux series by her so far but I am planning on reading many more because the Lux series was just so fantastic! I loved how real and somewhat normal it felt, Continue reading “Top 5 Favourite Authors”